First things first: Know that depression after weaning is a real thing.
I didn’t realize this. Many people don’t, although there is starting to be more information out there about it. All I knew about was regular postpartum depression, and I braced myself for it, because with a history of depression I knew I was at risk.
But to my relief, I didn’t have any episodes of depression in my twin daughters’ first year. I thought I was in the clear. Then, when I finished the gradual process of weaning my girls when they were thirteen months old, I got walloped.
All of my usual, loathsome depression symptoms set in: I was irritable, exhausted and unmotivated. I couldn’t concentrate. Not much of anything gave me pleasure. The world seemed bleak and dull. There were times when simply existing hurt.
The symptoms themselves were wretched. But the cruelest part for me was this: On top of being depressed, I felt incredibly sad about the very fact that I was depressed. [Read more...]